On January 29, I started dating someone-- met him on OKCupid, an online dating site. (Which is great because it is free.)
He asked me out for that night, to meet at a coffee shop after work. After a little foot dragging on my part, I agreed to meet him in my favorite New York City bookstore-- the Union Square Barnes and Noble. I got there early, and found a book to read until he showed up. Which helped calm me down, because I always get nervous when I meet new people.
The first time I saw him in person, he smiled so big, it made me so happy. And then we walked and talked to a coffee shop, and everything made me happy. From the way he sat between me and the door so that I wouldn't be cold, to how he told me that he loved that I was smart, and shy, and that he really liked me.
And over the next couple months, I just wanted to stay happy forever, with him. Because every time I see him, I smile. And my stressful life of court briefs and money problems gets a lot easier after I spend time with him. Because we laugh, and act like teenagers. He skids on the ice, or we giggle at silly jokes. We wander around, holding hands and walking slow-- even though we are both naturally fast walkers-- because we just like being together.
But, he has to go away-- back to India. And I have no idea when, or if he is ever coming back. So I am trying to be happy for now. For this last week we have together, so I don't spoil the little time we have left with all the tears I want to cry over him going away.